feelin the need for a nice back rub right now….oh where art thou tj?

LOL ive only started on gg last week and im already on season 3…oh gawd…what have i become? but its just SOOOO good. lawl… so pitiful. but every time i see chuck and blair together my heart feels like its ripping. LOL yea but guess what? yep the pools opening this week!?!?! i get to meet my new co workers!!! hopefully we dont get anyone like BH again…okay i just jinxed that. but anyways im gonna miss AS. considering the fact that he was so sa;dklfj last year. #goodtimes im so ready to get my lax tan evened out, but i NEED to start working on my beach bod… oh gawd bananas all day errday? LOL #mkdiet if you know what i mean? i just noticed how im so random at times…this post was for gg but now im talking about the pool LOL go me. 

during today’s sermon pastor esther was talking about RG3’s passion for football and how he became so amazing at football because he was so passionate about it. and while i was listening to her talking about his passion i was wondering what my passion was. and i felt so pathetic when i was like…..no comment….idk… that got me thinking of what my passion could be. and i know its not TOO late to be passionate about something, but what is it that God wants me to do. cause i know its not all about me. and i cant just as God to tell me what im suppose to do with my life, its something that i should figure out about my life. but i asked him to help me guide myself to what i really wanna do with my life. i havent actually heard an answer from him. so we shall wait and see. but talking about things that im interested in, lately ive been having this thing to design clothes…LOL yes i suck at drawing but i mean even this pastor said when he prayed about me that he saw me as a fashion designer…but i was like nahh that cant be right i want to be a doctor. haha. who knows. but ive always been interested in being a pediatrician and if not a pediatrician, a orthodontics  or maybe a orthopedics. but i really want to find my passion. thats it.